Musings of an Optimist

I haven't been keeping this blog up to date. Sometimes it's because I forget, sometimes it's because i'm too tired, sometimes it's because I don't have time and sometimes it's because I just don't feel like writing. So what has happened since I last wrote? The job that i've been hoping to get opened up, i went for a long series of interviews and believe it or not, i actually managed to land it.

I was happy when I got the news partially because I was sick and tired of interviewing and partially because I finally got the job I wanted. But at the same time, I wasn't as ecstatic as I thought I would be. Maybe it's because it dragged on for too long or maybe I'm not sure it really is what I want. That's kinda not true because I do want it because it'll be interesting, it'll be intense and it's the move in the right direction.

Maybe it's because before I got it, I was worried that I wouldn't get it and now that I have got it, I'm worried how I'll totally stuff up in the role and have to get fired probably. These fears are probably unfounded but I have a lot on my mind perhaps so it's all getting to me a bit. It doesn't help that I sprained my ankle badly a few weeks ago and haven't been able to go for a good run for a few weeks. Can't wait till I can play again.

On a healthy note, i've finally gotten back into a gym regime and hoping I can stick to it. It's been raining cats and dogs today and the foul weather didn'd do anything to cheer up my not too great mood which is why I'm sitting at home finally updating this blog on a friday night...that and because I'm actually quite tired for some reason. I think it's the lack of running my body is used to.

Enough whining, happy long weekend to all you people : )

After being terribly sick for a week, had a very peaceful weekend where I concentrated on recovering and watching lots of TV. Not watching anything new though, all old soapies that I wanted to rewatch and it was very enjoyable. Now it's mid-week again and hopefully the weekend will come soon. I'm undeniably older now but at the same time, I feel that things are going to get better in many ways so hope it all does work out. I've been fretting an interview though so I've been trying to prepare myself for it as well as I can, read up on some research and hope it doesn't all just dribble back out haha. I know msyelf well enough to admit my own strengths (very good at eating and drinking) and weaknesses (pure laziness defined) and I believe in myself enough that I think I'll do okay. Let's see shall we? And hope I'll have good news to put up here soon : )

And another month goes by, time really seems to go by in HK. Something I've been waiting for for some time seems to be getting closer. Just hope it goes through...

Been ages since I wrote hehe but thought i'd take another stab today. Movies that I've recently watched and would recommend...and decided to put them in priority of what to watch first as well;

Stardust

Good Luck Chuck

Game Plan

Hair Spray

Smokin' Aces

Waitress

Ok that tired my brain out already, will post again later haha

This is the first saturday night i've voluntarily stayed at home and I'm not even sick. I was a bit tired but if I really wanted to, I guess I could have gone out. But I stayed in, finished watching some TV episodes which is great because I haven't had time to watch any at all in the past few years really. Not a bad way to spend a saturday night : )

Life nowadays seems to fly by so quickly. Slow down a bit people and think what exactly it is that you're rushing around, working your ass off for. Some people say it's for money but that's not really true. It's for what you do with that money isn't it? And what are you going to do with your money, save it? Invest it? Buy some things? Have a more comfortable life? Those are all valid uses of the money you've worked so hard for but then some time down the track, you're gonna think to yourself, "Why DID you work so hard".

A lot of the things you bought you could really have gone without and you have a nice home, nice car, nice yacht...all well and good. And then? Too many people get caught up in the momentum of mediocrity, working because it's what you need to do, buying that house/car/whatever because it's about time you bought it, joining that club or this because that's what everybody else is doing and in the end you realise you don't know what you're waking up each morning for. It's certainly not for that pile of work that's waiting for you at the office is it?

Enjoy life my friends because that's what it's all about. Working hard so you can do so is fine and I fully support that. But savour life and each of its glorious moments. Be romantic with the one you love, spend time with family, laugh as hard as you can with your friends. Life isn't about achieving great things so you can tell people that you've achieved something. Indeed most people who achieve great things is because they're passionate about whatever it is they do and that inspires them to greatness. So be passionate about what you do and have a passion for life and stuff you like doing.

Enjoy that family moment when you can feel that unique unconditional family love. Enjoy that walk with your loved one on that moonlit beach, hold them close and thell them as many times as you want that you love them. Enjoy that gathering of friends when you can laugh without inhibition and be your true silly self. And enjoy that cold, miserable winter afternoon, when you're all alone at home because with a cup of hot tea, quiet house to yourself, soft drizzle of rain on the windows and a good book, that cold, miserable winter afternoon can be one of the best moments in life.

Love life people : )

I know that I hadn't posted anything in a while but I only just realised how long ago it really was. It's been almost 3 months since my last post!! Over the past few months I've been busy, with work mainly and recovering from injuries. Pretty much recovered now and regaining some of my lost fitness but I'm sure there's not much point discussing my health here hahaha. Nothing momentous has happened over the past few months really but I've had a few friends come back only to leave again all too soon but I know they'll be back soon so it's okay. Also got over this major episode at work and managed to come out of it in one piece but it was touch and go there for a while. I guess one other date that went by was my 2 year anniversary at work and it's just scary how quickly time flies.

For some weird reason, I found that I've had this recent thing for girls in Juicy Couture pants. Obviously, some relatively fit girls must have caught my attention at some stage but I do think that girls do look quite good in them. I'm sure that if somebody is reading this, they're probably going, "Okaaaay..." and I think I better not pursue this any further either hehehe...but they do look good just to get the last word in.

When would you say a girl is at her prettiest? I think that girls normally say on their wedding day in their wedding gown. Guys would probably say when they're smiling (...or naked...or both...very shallow aren't we? hahaha) and I agree...on the smiling bit. But not just any smile. It's the smile when a girl is in the arms of the person she loves, with that soft, yielding look in her eyes that just says "I'm all yours". Maybe it's because I think it's so sweet when people let down their guard and barriers just for that one special person.

Totally random thoughts hmmm...

Life is just full of ups and downs isn't it? Over just the past few days, I've been ecstatic, tired, happy, lost, unsure of myself, bemused, thriving, exhausted, realised some truths and then stabilised myself. And now I'm bitter because I hate not being able to do something about family squabbles. At times I wish I wasn't such a rational person, thinking about consequences so much but alas, it seems i'm the only one who knows that somethings can't be unsaid.

It's been a while since I posted something about things more recent. I've been pretty tired since the exam and I haven't really had a chance to rest properly. So on Friday night, after finishing work around 9.30ish, I took a quick side trip to Causeway Bay to check out if they were any new movies etc. I found a new VCD place and I was so happy that I have an extra shop to browse for movies now hahaha. Anyhow after a brief browse, I went home and just chilled the rest of the night away which kinda shows how tired I was since I didn't even attempt to go out. Got some sleep and then woke up on Sat for indoor soccer which was great since I haven't done any sports for a while. Also they finally changed the goals to proper size and I had a few very satisfying shots, have to say hehe. Went home and got a brief nap and then woke up to watch Pirates of the Carribean 3 which wasn't too bad I guess. Then went to have japanese and went out after to go drinking which is something I hadn't done for a while. Today was just for chilling, nothing strenuous. Woke up to have lunch with mum. Then read comics for 2 hours and then went to get a massage. Then went to play arcade games before having dinner and then headed home. Then...I updated this blog. Hope everybody had a good weekend : )

An old posting reposted

I've always liked watching shows like National Geographic or the Discovery Channel. One thing that has never ceased to amaze me is the instincts that are so ingrained in animals that they'll often do inexplicable but wonderful things. I remember a story of a female lion that had lost its own cub for one reason or another. The film documented the lioness as it came across a baby deer that had become separated from its own herd and because it had only been born very recently, it was still terribly weak. The lioness, when it came across the baby deer, had not eaten for a while and should have looked upon it as natural prey. But the lioness' maternal instincts overrode her hunger and she began to feed the deer with her own milk. When the deer was a bit stronger, she forced the deer to get up and start moving by gentling pushing it along to find the deer's herd again. When the deer was too tired, the lioness would carry the deer in her jaws and keep going. The tale didn't end with a happy ending. The baby deer was too weak to keep surviving and the lioness refused to move from the body of the baby deer after it had died until the lioness had to, for fear of losing her own life to hunger. Animals can hurt other animals but they do so from instinct because they need to survive. But even animals, beings that can not argue philosophy, that can not do maths, nor understand literature can over ride their instincts. So how do we humans, who pride ourselves on how smart we are and how much we've achieved, justify why we hurt one another?